I love you I love you i love you i love you

Tomorrow I have to go to a funeral.  I really dont want to go because like most poeple, I hate funearls and  I dont even know the decesaed.  Nora asked me to go to be her support.  I am a bit baffled that she would ask me and I am greatly honored.  But mostly, I am extremly sad for this man who lost his life in a freak accident. Again, reminder how fragile life is and things can shift 360 degrees with no warning.. one day you are minding your own business, doing your thing and next day.. something like this happens.  What goes through his loved ones' mind? Did his kids tell him he loved him recently, Did his wife kiss him goodbye before he left on his last day? Did his neigbor wave as he drove away?  How does this make any sense? I am saddened by this in a lot of different levels. Want to make sure I tell ANYONE who I love, I love them. make sure I dont take anyone for granted.  People laugh at me because I am so touchy feely.. I tell people how good looking they are and how much I love them.. I get blamed for being too unprofessional and some even call me crazy.  I been called Aggressively Friendly because I am well a little too friendly but honestly... I dont want to change any of that.. So what? someone is mad because I am TOO nice? is there even such a thing?   So in honor of this man whom I dont even know..  I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ... and if I LOVE YOU then you get me and understand that is my nature to love and let people know that... so lets celebrate life in a whole different way.. If you are reading this blog.. make sure you tell one person that you dont normally say this to, that you love them....

This job of mine. So challanging at times and I love it.  Never the same, the routine is different. Different people, different patients different health issues different needs different wants different standards different expectations different cultures -- One thing that never changes is that i really believe in what I do... I believe that it makes a difference to be geniune and real.  It makes a difference to really listen to what our patients want.  Sometimes, I am too busy charting or coming up with my 'recommendations" and then I stop and I think What am I doing? what is it that person wants or needs... what makes this 45 minutes worth their time? When I was in the hospital, I would have to really concentrate on charting and codes and that is why I was there. My interaction with the patients made no difference.  I decided when I started this job over five years ago  ( OMG or as Ka would say OMD) to really concentrate on what my patients wanted and I try my best to do that.  Sometimes my meeting has little to do with nutrtion. I hear my patiens cry and it breaks my heart.   I hear all the real issues they face everyday.  I want to make them feel heard and validated.  I hear moms who cant let their kids out for a walk cause it is not safe for them to be outside. I hear diabetic teens who dont want to inject insulin because they want to lose weight ( very high blood sugars makes body get rid of calories by peeing them out.. very risky behavior ). I hear middleagers who do not have enough money for food and cant affor their medicine.  I hear women who dont want to lose weight since they dont want to attract wrong attention from their sexual abusers - I hear mom and dad who use their obese teens to get back at each other.. and lists goes on and on.  How do you fix a life full of problems with a 45 minute appointment? I dont and I know that.. but I know also that everything will be helpful no matter how litte.

But yesterday.. I got such a cute evaluation. and this makes it all worth it

Little Thing in life

I have been bummed lately because I really miss the city and I miss my friends and especially you blog reader you.. This is such a different life style. I guess I should feel like I accomplished something because now we own a house and it is a very nice house with pretty backyard and oh the dog.. Dandy Dog is so cute.  I love having him.  he makes me laugh and he is so full of joy. Such a great little personality and he is super cute.   Oh my city days though.. god.. so much fun. LOVED LOVED LOVED living there.  so yesterday, I went to see Jaime and it was such a super fun day.  We went to a brunch for a little boy in Jaime's class and the kids were so super sweet.  Then we went for a walk and it was so nice to be with Jaime ( and I am NOT just saying that because he is one of my only reades). it was fun to be with my own kind.  People who get me and I dont have to worry about being too goofy or not professional.  Then he makes it even better by giving me things to look forward to.  I love that.. two or three different events.  Thanks my Jaime Cid.  I love you very much.  You make me extremly happy.

Good Bye FB -- Hello Blogging

Hello my faithful reader... If you are kind enough to give me another chance.. I wont disappoint and will update my somewhat whatever life to you... Today I made a decision to get off of FB. never thought I would. I really enjoyed hooking up with old friends . got to know my cousins and other relatives. But it is not worth it and maybe I should be a bit paranoid as well.  I will blog more and I will do my best to keep  my work and personal life seperate.  See Dandy could not have been happier. Love to you sc