OMG- can you belive i been walkin around like this all day

SO I have been really enjoying my new phone. Have been showing it off all day long.. taking a million photo of my coworkers and a trillion of my actual foot ( by accident of course ). well it turns out that I had this huge piece of toilet paper stuck IN my pants.  this is so embarassing and when Rich Pulled it out.. I was appalled. to top it off, I even managed a trip to TJS.. with a tp and all.  well At first I was mortified and thought oh my god.. I saw EVERYONE today.. but now I dont feel so bad.  I think it is funny and more humbling-- oh good lord.  what next? or should I even bother asking

oooooooooooooooooo- i got me a new IPHONE

I am so happy.. finally upgraded to the 2000s and actually have a phone that does not weigh about 500 pounds and can actully allow me to text.  I had a lot of fun with my phone though.. People made fun of it all the time and it was a great conversation piece

me and my broccolli : )

I had such a wonderful day today as I knew I would with Jaime.  I really miss you.   We talked and talked and talked and talked.. ate and shopped - the weather was nice and cool.  I love spending time with Jaime because no matter what he makes me feel good about myself.  He listens to what I have to say and I really feel heard. I would post our video which  is quite funny but somehow I cant .. it keeps "failing" -- keep checking though my lovely reader because I may be able to put it back up-- It was also cool to share ideas and talk about our lives and know that we have not one but two events AT LEAST to look forward to ... Yeay.. ( I know I am cheating.. but I LOVE this photo of us-- and I love the picture you and dandy!!)
love you Jaime == thanks for a great Saturday

the way we look

 I remember vividly when I was 15 years old and had this really long discussion with my brother and his now wife about how we look.  I was so convinced  that it was all about looks-- that life was for people who were good looking and the rest of us, well then... and somehow, maybe because of my recent trip to Ohio or the last few interactions I had with different individuals... I am thinking about the way I look lately.  It seems it has been coming up a lot.  Sometimes I still feel bummed and I wish I was better looking which is sad given that I am middle aged and this is such a high school stuff. I should be ok with who I am.  I always wonder what it would be like to be really pretty or really alluring or whatever the word is.  A lot of it because of the tough high school years and even like with growing up in a culture where beauty was even more important than in US. and I was always told that I was not so pretty.  I was always the smart one.  and I was always told that if I put make up on or if I dressed better or cared more about stuff, I would look better.  From the time I can remember, someone wanted to fix me. to make me look better. Either by fixing my hair or putting make up on or dressing me sexier.  I always have hated that and resisted it for ever.  Now I do feel like I dress at least better. ..  However, thirty years or so.. I  still cant seem to shake this off.  I see my pictures and my videos and think i am ok.. nothing to write home about .. just ok. however, I always think that it would have been so much easier if I had been better looking.  Somehow I have to work through this so it does not keep coming back over and over to haunt me.

Healthy Eating: One old receipe..

As you wonderful blog person reader know I am trying to bake and/or cook more.  I started today but I have made this  recipe.. A lot of work.I made these recipe because our neighbor requested them.  They made us some great bbq last night and some great mint ice cream ( yes home made )  OMG..

So today I started at 5pm and now it is around 9 pm and I am almost done  At least I only doubled the recipe. The mistake I made last time was I triplicate the recipe and that took even longer.  Next time, I  may just have to make one batch-- The other positive thing is that I knew exactly what I needed and was able to go to WINCO and purchase the items rather quickly.  I made Lentil Cookies-

This is the recipe for it:

Lentil Puree: 

2/3 cup lentils picked over and rinsed

2 cups of water

Cookie Batter

2 cups whole wheat flour

1 tsp baking powder

1 tsp salt

1/2 tsp ground cinnamon

1/2 tsp allspice 

1 cup sugar

3/4 cup unsalted butter, room temp

1 egg

1 tsp vanilla extract 

1 cup rolled oats

1 cup of dried fruit ( I used prunes and apricots ) 

1 cup unsweetened dried shredded coconut

Boil the lentils and water for 30 to 40 minutes or until lentils are tender. Remove from heat and let cool, Then puree in food processor until smooth ( PAIN IN THE --- ) 

Preheat oven o 375 degree. In a medium bowl, combine flour, baking powder, salt Cinnamon and all spice

Using a mixer, cream sugar and butter on medium speed. Add egg and mix until just Incorporated.  Add vanilla and the lentil puree and mix until combined.  Add flour mixture and blend on the low speed until just combined. 

Remove bowl from mixer and stir in oats, dried fruits and coconut.  Form dough into balls about 2 tsp in size and place in oven for about 15-18 minutes

Sounds easy enough?? it is not that bad but it does require some pureeing which i am not too fond of. I also add extra choc. chips because I love choc. chips.   I did not do a nutritional analysis and it did not cow with one but I imagine they have about 50-100 calories each and about 4 grams of fiber which is pretty good.  I am not sure If I would do this recipe again .  To explain the photos:  that was Dandy throughout the whole baking.. he kept looking for food.  Rich was happy with the results.. The view of our backyard .. absoultely breathless as  I was baking..

The Dog Graduates!!!

I cant belive it.. After a rocky start.. Dandy graduated today.  I was very proud of him... He lost all his hair duirng this process-- and I think he was the third in his class ( out of three )  but neverthless he did graduate and next month we will proceed with the intermediate classes. The nice thing is that once he is done with this.. he will be able to be certified and I believe I can then train him to help the blind ( or me )

I am not sure how obedient he is but I do know that I absoultely LOVE my dog

Ohio Trip - day four

Spend the day with Janet and Laura. It was very pleasant. I am also very happy that I got to see Julie. We had a great time. It amazes me how much we get each other. Had we met today, we defintely would have been friends. I dont know if I will return to Ohio. There really is not a reason. I dont have any relatives here and there are too many other places I want to visit. I am so happy that I did this though. Right now, I am missing Rich, my dog and my routine. I look forward to going home tomorrow.
Tomorrow will be a long day but I will be ok
I dont feel very good tonight. I think I have a cold and I am heavily medicated. waiting for the drugs to kick in.. only 6 pm california time. OH BOY.. Jet Log is a bitch

: )