and yet another weekend in the burbs

I love three day weekends. Friday night movies with Jeff was very fun.. No matter how tired I am... No matter how much it rains.. no matter what.. knowing I get to see Jeff and a movie.. No matter how lame the movie.. I know it will be a great night. and this Friday was no expetion

Little Phebe goes to her first gay bar!!

This weekend, we went to Davis to see our most favorite baby... second date with little phebee who is beyond adorable

The weekend that was

Dandy in the Back Yard being Dandy

Me looking more and more like Dandy

Dandy making YET another friend!!

It is Super Sunday.  Sunni and I had a very big day.. and so did Dandi.. we dragged the poor dog all over the place and he vomitted twice in the car!!! He is such a good dog though.. nothing fazes him.  he threw up but he moved on and by the time we got to walnut creek. he was ready to be paid attention to... play with.. such a happy little puppy.

I am back ( again )

I tell you there is NOTHING like blogging. I love my facebook and have a lot of fun with that.. but really nothing helps me like blogging. and it is really only for me.  I am having a tough time with logging on here and I have had difficultiy with my video taping but the truth is I still miss blogging.  So... as the new year starts, I will be better.

Time to say good bye ( again )

I am very frustrated. I cant seem to get it right.  Sometimes I feel like I am mad at the world and mostly at myself. I am not sure what I want or what I can do to make it better.  From the outside it looks like I have everything.  Beautiful house and a great job. A pretty dog and a nice husband.  Then why do I feel so unsatisfied.  I worked so hard to get here, went through so much crap to get here then why is it that I cant appreciate it and be content.  why is it that I want more? I have been thinking a lot about this for the last few months.  Actually been questioning this a lot.. why is that I want more and what is it that I really want?  I think I dont want to think too much about this and avoiding it sometimes is the best way of dealing with it....

I will be 45 years old -- WOW!!!

hello blog reader (s)
so i will be 45 years old in three days. wow.. I dont want to think too much about that number because whatever I am supposed to feel as a 45 year old.. I dont feel -- I feel good.  I have never been this healthy or active. but I do want to make a list of things I want to achieve this year -- some things I dont want to deal with and they may have to wait but I do want to be a better swimmer.. I have started taking lessons.  We will see... and the other thing I really want to do or start to is to write a book.  It may never even get published but I want to start to write a book. 

I love you I love you i love you i love you

Tomorrow I have to go to a funeral.  I really dont want to go because like most poeple, I hate funearls and  I dont even know the decesaed.  Nora asked me to go to be her support.  I am a bit baffled that she would ask me and I am greatly honored.  But mostly, I am extremly sad for this man who lost his life in a freak accident. Again, reminder how fragile life is and things can shift 360 degrees with no warning.. one day you are minding your own business, doing your thing and next day.. something like this happens.  What goes through his loved ones' mind? Did his kids tell him he loved him recently, Did his wife kiss him goodbye before he left on his last day? Did his neigbor wave as he drove away?  How does this make any sense? I am saddened by this in a lot of different levels. Want to make sure I tell ANYONE who I love, I love them. make sure I dont take anyone for granted.  People laugh at me because I am so touchy feely.. I tell people how good looking they are and how much I love them.. I get blamed for being too unprofessional and some even call me crazy.  I been called Aggressively Friendly because I am well a little too friendly but honestly... I dont want to change any of that.. So what? someone is mad because I am TOO nice? is there even such a thing?   So in honor of this man whom I dont even know..  I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ... and if I LOVE YOU then you get me and understand that is my nature to love and let people know that... so lets celebrate life in a whole different way.. If you are reading this blog.. make sure you tell one person that you dont normally say this to, that you love them....